What can i say...
suddenly things are so so quiet... things was going just great rite after my bdae... until just now..
everything just came crashing down... wanna know why?
hmm
how should i put it..
me and my stupid ideas... always and always things are siding me... cmon lah for real?? how can i be so dumb in the 1st place?? why cant i just be like my bro just sit there enjoying the whole event...
agrhhhh now im in this whole mess.. how?
still can think that it was me? cmon la gotta get real rite??
well just gotta thank for the joy ride given for past few days... although it sucky but hey its alrdy usual for me... since God knows when...
seriously down on my luck...
why?? dont i deserve a decent love from anyone?? gosh..
well like i said before in my other post.... History Going To Repeat Itself ..
and i can see its going to start soon..
ouh wait i guess it has started just that im blinded by this stupid ideas..
me and my own world...
deep inside feel f-up as usual... really killing myself with all this shits
nthg has been abt me.. is always abt others.. when i thought its real, its actually just plain illusions.. lucky for me i found out at the right time.. if i were to find out sooner or later it would be much worst and i dont know what chaos can it cause...
It was fun and thanks... so ya.. i'll just move on from here...
shall bury this feeling soon...
and get back to square 1 to start my shits all over again..
Couldnt imagine if i were to fine ur blg much later.. i think i'll be like he most idiotic guy ever... in the 1st place how can i fall for u rite?? maybe because i dont know ur taken?? maybe thats the most and prolly the rational answer i have to at least not to make myself feel anyworst but never the less i shall say thanks again at least i did had a memorable bdae.. but too bad... im just one unlucky crap shit..
well thats it for now
You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you’re not a part of it.
well till here then
To be continued
