Well 1st and foremost...
alhamdullilah...
i get to meet again The Month...
Ramadhan...
Ok b4 i get to that...
Snr Spec Course West/Sea...
was a great one..
well im log nthg much to share but... seriously just one comment.. sea district is great bunch of ppl
regarding to the whole course seriously nthg much to share...
currently im feeling so down actually ... too the point that im telling ppl off... even that they do nthg... my head is spinning... ahve yet to figure things out.. and the feeling of lonelyness haunt me like crazy...
somehow this fasting month really helping me coppping wit things...
is great to see my peeps leading a great life with no worries...
for example shol...
his lyfe is so simple yet his happy wif things... no worries at all...
leading life so simple and yet meaningful... i just dunnoe the reason y???
maybe im just plain lazy?? well it might be true...
then comes rafiq...
another dear friend of my.. seeing the change in him make me really realise the reason why we are here... to change its a matter of really doing it or just a ya ya wateva thingy ....
i really respect him... well evrybody can change why can i?? rite...
well the only reason that i can find for now is ... im scared of changes... to adapt.. then to overcome the change... cause evrytime when i have to change or i want to change... it wont and ya as far as i noe it have yet to go my way evrytime...
i duunoe why but issit just me.. comparing with other ppl, there atre others worst than me.. yet they are leading a simple and meaningful life...
am i trying to hard... or over do things... maybe.. i myself not sure..
and yes!
its always not sure... like most of my friends abt me asyik not sure jek...
cause im afraid to make a stand or decision.... 17 years i lived.. i have never make a right decison.. its laways the opposite that is why i dont make decision... to me evrytime i make decisons it always go the opposite way!!!
some how this loneliness thas keeling me form the inside its helping but a lil part of it...
im still holing to this 2 qords for now till im sure that im not...
Alone.Again.
and this time its getting serious i guess....
really hope i can find this missing link....
have to go now.. will continue when i feel like it.............
for now... Selamat Berpuasa to all the muslim...
respect the month!
well thats it for now
Cinta tak kan datang kalau tidak dicari. Cinta tak kan datang kalau tidak memberi. Hidup tanpa Cinta bagaikan hidup tanpa cita-cita
Kalau jodoh tak kemana..
well till here then
To be Continued...
