things are slowly picking up... but then somehow i did overlook on some small things... maybe...
nevertheless.. i just have to look on the brighter side of things
well the 1st pass for my test... how bout that to start my entry?
nothing much for the whole week..
Friday ncc training was rather great i say.. as in we settle all of the admin side of things.. and as a 2IC for my sch cadet officers.. im rather proud and honoure to be with my comrades in leading the school.. hehe sound so leadership..
then proceed to mosque to settle my for stuffs for my so called youth concert?? Pementasan Belia... helped out a lil bit in transfering things b4 proceeding to kak shida's place to rewang...
i came at abt 11 plus so.. just boiled the chicken for the stock slacked around and sleep......
woke up arnd 8 ... started to fry the chicken and the tofu... and started with all the cooking...
blah2 end at arnd 10 plus... then started with all the prep..after all that had to rush home change to go to Mesjid for the mini youth concert thingy... blah2... took pics but dunnoe where ahaha
Fuad Rahman and the vocallist for Trabo.. Hayyum was there to grace the occasion... the whole thing was quite ok.. minor cock ups was there of course.. in the end ya ok...
Overnight at mesjid... super great la...sing2 at the park ahaha then called Din up to pick us up go home take my baju silat then head back to masjid... me salihin syafiq fahmy and salman when to play soccer in the middle of the night...
then head back... took a nap.. then woke up at abt arnd 7 plus prep for performance... had a rehearsal b4 the whole thing... right after that help out with the goodie bag... finally change to our shirts and get ready for the performance... for me my performance wasnt that good on that day as in isnt as planned... well evrything did end with a bang! .. yup... boomm de yada!!!
the rest of the day i hanged out at our fityan bistro stall.. with afiqah afidah and her friends... not forgetting the WTJ peeps.. man i did enjoyed myself... though its tiring not enough slp... somehow.. things really hit the spot for me.. well what can i say.. she was there... seeing her is alrdy the best thing aite??
too bad no pics wit me and her.. well nvm.. another time or smthg....
and yeah.. Fiesta keluarga.. to me la... Was a BLAST... al the kecohness and everything...
was great... so sorry to bdk2 WTJ cause tk stay to take the grp photo...
yeah... ICE CREAM! ICE CRAEAM!
Monday had training silat as usual wasnt on form... so ya did what i could do...
and yeah... nothing much school been normal.. just that less frequent to the gym now.. dunnoe y im just to tired nowadays..
fyi... im now lesson my time hanged out with peeps till late play cs till late or just lepak... to me now i rather stay at home and ya just stay at home... sorry but ya those who have been messaging me or try to reach me at my Hp currently im not using my phone... ill tell when my phone is up and running for now.. msn will do.. ya??
I guess its coming true now.. alone.again... not everything thats repeating itself just that all the crappyness of life thats haunting me... all administrative stuff this and that.. Ncc proposal this dateline that dateline... my commitment to NCC is so decreasing which i cant find a reason y?...
im not so enthu as i am last time regarding ncc... well facing the facts... to be what i wanna a be is pretty or i should say very difficult... the passion for Army isnt there anymore... my leadership skills and all that i have learnt somehow i lost it... im so so weak inside... always trying to use my fist as a solution for all my problem... like the other time... i nearly blow my top... but still theres something that will hold me... my faith my religion i guess...
Love? is out of the question now...
well ya i do feel envy of the ppl that ya know walk aroud holding hands.. but too bad for me...
im not cut for it... just living with plain dreams... nthg but dreams.. hope..
AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
is there still and love out there for me??
just holding on to plain hopes..
well thats it for now
I’ve learned that good-byes will always hurt, pictures can never replace being there, memories forget the hard times, words can never replace feelings, and heroes often go unsung
well till here then
To be continued...
